Things That Rock...

- Ker & Bean
I got to see them every night I was home this week. Thursday night I met them at a local bar and had a great time: shots and random dancing with people I went to high school with, compliments and the unforgettable "want to go get naked?" comment from that hot kid Bean introduced herself to. Wow. That's one way to go from super hot to absolutely dismissed, idiot guy. Friday night I found myself on Ker's sofa chilling and watching a movie. Bean showed up that night too. Then, Saturday night we went out to the bar and met Niki. All the bars were pretty beat because of the holiday weekend, I guess ... However, as always though, the night was not lost! Add the three of us together and if we don't start being ridiculous, we're bound to find someone else. Saturday night it was the crazy, dancing old lady at the local Irish bad! Oh man, I was crying I was laughing so hard at points. She almost deserves a subject all her own, but I just can't put it into words well enough to describe the insanity of that dancing old woman. Hahaha ... I'm laughing just thinking about it

- The 4th of July
With the town I grew up in, The 4th of July is a pretty big deal. We don't do fireworks, but there's a parade, firetruck rides and, more importantly, everyone drinking at the firehouse. Just about anyone that ever lived in the town at some point comes back for The 4th and I was one of those people this year again. I drove passed my old house, passed the elementary school and parked outside my aunt & uncle's home. They're the last of the three families left in the town. I then walked some blocks to the firehouse, shaking my head at points at just how crazy that town is. The firehouse was no exception! There were so many people: old high school friends, old elementary school friends, old pre-school friends and old family friends. Too weird, too weird. One of my mom's longest friends was having a party for The 4th and I went there with my parents. The food was so good, the company was great and "little" Phil made some banging mojitos. The night pretty much ended at Ker's. I stopped by her place to check on her (her meds had been making her sick), talk to her and chill out.

- Aaron
me talking about Kat's wedding
me: AliCat's boyfriend (Aaron's friend) is going - I figured it'd be nice if I took one of his friends ... and I like you the most lol
Aaron: haha - thats nice to know
That and I just generally adore Aaron and all his sweetness - sweet enough to pack early since he'll pretty much be going right to AZ as soon as we get back from the hotel and Kat's wedding. The wedding is one more thing to keep him busy too. I asked him to go with me tonight and he's my date now. I had to invite someone. It's been all of us forever. It's Kat's wedding, her sister's married, AliCat's taking her boyfriend of almost 2 years and Gretch (my cousin) will have someone too. I couldn't go alone. I did that at Julie's, but this wedding is far away which means it's not just a few hours of being the bold, single chick. I can't be stuck chatting with my family or being some third wheel. I invited Bean, but it's Ker's birthday weekend and I can't leave her without both of us on her birthday.

- The News
Flipping through the stations tonight, I caught the Fox News weather ... and this guy I used to go to high school with was the weatherman! How random is that?! We grew up in the same town, both did theater and he graduated with my cousin, C. I guess that fact doesn't really "rock", but I thought it was pretty crazy at the time.

- This Coming Week!
I took off Thursday and Friday this week because the Nezzies are going to be up from FL later in the week - everyone but Ty, I think. I am so excited! They'll be in Cape May and it should definitely be a good time no matter what we end up doing. The Nezzies are some of the best people ever and I feel really bad for anyone that doesn't know them or have people like them in their lives. I can't wait to see all the kids too. :)

I've been so confused about stuff lately with this guy and my silly confusion keeps making me ramble and/or over-think everything. I don't know if I should just drop the whole thing now (and maybe should have even before now) or take it for what it is. Maybe I'm talking myself out of something that could be good (or at least fun for awhile) or maybe all my lessons learned have just made me really lack trust in guys - "I'm being honest" just doesn't make me believe it anymore. I don't know. But if I haven't officially yet, I'm definitely in the process of fucking this up.