boo to february 14th

So yea, yesterday was extremely not fun, as I thought it would be. This whole week has been not so hot so far and now I'm sick too.

This guy, DBRyan came over recently and we've been talking, just friendly stuff or joking around. He's friends with some of my guy friends and I think he definitely fell into the friend category. He was over and we ended up napping (little sleep for me and he had a long drive from where he was coming from and then had spent time in AC for a bit, I think, too). Anyway, we end up napping and though I was insistent we weren't going to do anything, he was really trying and we kissed some, made out some, but nothing too serious.

Anyway, BM (friend from high school that goes to my college and is best friends with DBRyan) goes and tells me later after all this has gone on that DBRyan made out with me even though he apparently has a girlfriend, he is amazing at playing games, amazing at being fake. That scares the hell out of me ... who does that?! I f*cking hate people that lie right to your face. They creep me out. Whatever, if he values me as the friend he kept saying I was, he'll IM me or something and be honest from here on out.

Champ had me yell & block the scumbag, DBRyan. SexL kind of had me second-guessing that decision though-
me: I blocked DBRyan, the one with the gf ... I told him honesty wasn't a lot to ask for, that I deserved more from a guy, a friend ... even from someone I was just talking to
SexL: and what did he say?
me: nothing, I blocked him - Cause he was all laughing it off: "She's more of a "fake" girlfriend" - what the f*ck does that mean?!
SexL: a "fake" gf????? i have no clue what that is - sounds shady
me: seriously - and I don't want the random thing anymore. I mean, if he had been up front with me- "I have a girlfriend, it's not serious - we're not good for each other" maybe then (is that awful?!?!)
SexL: no, cause i feel the same way.
me: but he was saying shit I wanted to hear and didn't admit the girlfriend part - that's no good
SexL: if they're out looking for someone/something better at that moment and they find you (or me) and things happen....it isnt our fault
me: I had to block him
SexL: yeah i hear ya

Anyway, Happy Valentine's/Wednesday/Snow Day or whatever else you might be celebrating - lots of love and luck to you. Personally, I want an Anteros' Day. Anteros: brother to Eros; God who avenged unrequited love; He was said to punish those who did not return the love of others - the rationale being that love must be answered if it is to prosper.

“I am not interested in picking up crumbs of compassion thrown from the table of someone who considers himself my master. I want the full menu of rights.” -Bishop Desmond Tutu