Kickin Off The New Year

As I mentioned here, bad things did not go on the night of new year's eve...

Someone randomly, violently and for no good reason assaulted me. She came into the room looking to fight, I think, with the things she was saying: calling me a dyke for lying on the floor with Mo watching a movie, saying I was disrespectful and a bunch of other things I just ignore ... until I heard her insinuate I'm a "c*nt". I hate that word!!! And that was when my buzzed sleepiness and pride made me speak before thinking of how nutty this girl is (note: it's best to just ignore nutty people). She said that and I said the only person acting like one was her ... and then she started kicking me in the head (again, I was already lying on the floor). I couldn't do anything but curl up and thankfully there were people there to pull her off of me, mainly Mo and MMKev, I think.

Ugh, I don't want to say more. Paranoid me is worried if I post too much, I'll get myself in trouble OR if a buddy of this crazy girl this person comes across this and there's too much posted, she'll take it to twist around. I rarely share photos, but check out the heel prints I have on my shoulder now from getting kicked in the back of the head while I was lying down though...


Here is what I will say though: I am hoping the incident that happened on new year's eve was the "cherry on top" of a horrific year (getting my dad's diagnosis, losing my job, moving back home and everything those things combined have forced me to deal with). I am thankful for my friends, will not let the bad outweigh the good of the night and I remain hopeful for the new year ... but I'm not considering it a "new year" until the wounds from that night are gone. Expect delayed resolutions until then as well.

JMac is in the healthcare system and was very, very nice to me ... but as I stopped crying (which was for like an hour since that's apparently how I dealt with my anxiety that night) and started to settle down, I realized he was just really freakin annoying: "I like you so much. I like you for you. We really need to get together. blah blah blah" And this continued after I said at least 3 times that now was not the time to discuss that and that I'd been through too much and couldn't handle all that too. Honestly, I ignored my lack of much attraction to you last year and said I'd go out with you, JMac, because people kept insisting you were such a nice guy ... such a nice guy that you didn't show the 3 times we had plans. 3 TIMES!!! And I don't care if you were right down the street the third time because I had already waited an hour for you and that's just ridiculous! So, I don't care what you said while I looked like a punching bag from being kicked and crying, you messed up three times. Don't act like I'm the bad person.

Later that night, after crying, cleaning myself up and getting rid of JMac, I texted MMKev. He's pathetic. I'm sorry I was ever interested in him. He has such commitment issues ... even to this. The helping get that girl off me, freaking out and, from what I heard, later punching some people who deserved it for getting me hurt ... all to like never text me to check on me days afterwards (he texted Mo instead), not want to help with me pressing charges, etc.