oh crushes

One of the guys AliCat befriended during college is adorable. Adorable! Once the stars collided and we made out, kissed and – I stopped it. My drunkenness had me babbling that AliCat is my friend, my best friend, and I didn’t know what she’d think of us making out. I should have kept on with the direction that was heading instead of stopping him, damn it.

Anyway, that kissing night was like two or three years ago and I haven't really seen him since. Tonight really was unexpected ... he lives so damn far away (stupid North Jersey) that I don’t expect to see him around here much – even for his best friend’s house warming party. But he was there and I got to see him this afternoon! It was nice to see him ... even if he does apparently have a gf now (boo!/lucky girl!!).

Later, of course, AliCat teased me that I liked him and I said, “Totally. He’s just so ridiculously hot and you love him (they’re like best friends), so he’s got to be a first class guy”

It's only in hindsight and after I stopped the kissing that night that I found out AliCat would have been all for that - all for, what she said, two of the best people she knows getting together. She's so cute and sweet! :) Oh and a funny side conversation came up tonight while we were talking (after she teased me about liking him):
AliCat: yea but he lives in north jerz. that's too far anyways
me: i was in central for awhile and his gf is in Boston lol
AliCat: yea. i don't know. i couldn't do that haha
me: lol I know, I like sex too much ... but it could work lol
AT THE SAME TIME SHE SENT
AliCat: i like sex too much to have that distance ~ lol weird!
me: if it's worth it, you make it work ~ LOL LOL
AliCat: i was typin that same thing
me: lol and too funny ~ oh well, I'll wish them the best ... and if it doesn't work, that I run into him then lol
AliCat: totally

I think it’s just too, too funny that we typed our one distance issue at the same time and that it was the same thing. Oh geez! :)

Wish I’d kept kissing him that night. Wish I saw him more. Wish he lived closer. Hell, I’d settle for him just being single now lol I’ve dated a guy from a distance :) I made that work and I wasn't half as interested in him as I have been for so long with AliCat's friend.

Seeing him today, geez, I’m barely talking because I was just thinking: "Are you thinking what I'm thinking?" Do you remember kissing or were you too drunk?" “Come stand by me.” “Say something (this isn’t just directed to him, but at myself too lol)” “Kiss me again, please" "Any time, any place, let's get back to where we were that night” lol “Pull me aside and kiss me. I'd be completely ok with that.” I do much better putting myself out there kissing than I do having to express myself with words lol And my oh my I'd like to do so much more than kiss him, like strip off his clothes and just run my hands all over him and such... :)

"Meet me in the sheets
I’ll kiss you like I’ll never
feel your lips again."
-Daily Haiku on Love by Tyler Knott Gregson

Ahh, ::sigh:: I like that haiku and its appropriate. This one too:
“It’s always better
to fall asleep hand in hand.
Reach out for me now.”
- Daily Haiku on Love by Tyler Knott Gregson

Yea, reach out for me. I'd love curling up with you at night, I'm sure.

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